Started School

For some reason I didn't think my life was crazy enough so I decided to go back to school. Yup that's me full time mom, part time job and student at good old Salt Lake Community College....Go Bruins! Im thinking about going into the RAD TECH program but from what I hear the medical field is flooded. So now I am not so sure. For now I will work on my Generals and see where in the heck life takes me. Maybe, just maybe, I will figure this out before little Joe graduates High School.

Home Made Yumminess(its word, I promise)

I Went over to Deja's house tonight and made home made Salsa. I know what your thinking yummy right? Well it is.
We made a lot more than three bottles but I let her keep most of it, since all the ingredients came from her garden. I know , I know I'm a nice sister.

I know I never post on here. I almost feel bad. Almost. I would like to say that its because I have a really busy life, but now that I am only working part time I don't really have that excuse. HaHa.

Tonight we went to the Spruces and had a wienie roast. It got cold. But it was a lot of fun. I love the Spruces. I have a lot of great memories there.


I also realized this was probably the last time this year we will have one of these summer type activities. And while I love summer I am also excited for the fall. I love the change of the colors and the crisp air. Im not excited for winter but I am going to love every minute of fall. :)

Friday Confesional

I really haven't done this in a while but heck why not!

I confess:

• I have spent a lot of time complaining about all those people who talk in "text"
• you know: OMG, FML, WTF, LOL
• I am now officially one of "those people".
• I have stopped complaining about those people
• I'm addicted to reality shows
• I love the drama.
  
• I just hate drama in my own life.
• Some of my top favorites are
• Biggest Loser
• The real Desperate housewives.....
• Americas Next top Model
• Project Runway
• (I DO NOT watch Jersey Shore)
• (I did try it once but I ended up with a headache and decided it wasn't worth it.)
• I know most reality shows are trash but I am HOOKED!
  
• I publicly want to thank my husband for putting up with this addiction and not leaving me.

And that's all for this Friday! Thanks Glamazon for hosting this wonderful Friday confessional!

New Year, New Intentions.

I was reading a blog that Alison Sweeney writes. (Biggest Loser, Days of Our lives) I don't read it all that often.....In fact this was the first blog of hers I read and I really liked it. In this particular blog, she wrote that she doesn't like new years resolutions. She says "I like to put more of a work-in-progress spin on it." So instead she has New Years Intentions. I think I am going to adopt this more positive approach. Resolutions seem so final. This way if I start to fail I don't feel like I have to give up. Its not and "all or nothing" attitude.

I'm not going to get really personal here and list ALL of my intentions this year, however I will let you know that I do intend to write on my blog more often. I usually only write whenever I feel like I have something to say.......and that isn't very often. Another one of my intentions is to read the news more often. And by news I do not mean what/who the Kardashians are doing, and by news I do not mean what teen mom is going to Jail. (Yes I do watch all the trashy reality shows, its one of my guilty pleasures.) But I do mean what is ACTUALLY going on in this world so I can understand what everyone (and by that I mean my husband) is talking about when they complain about the economy, or North Korea, or that guy in Australia who leaked a bunch of government secrets.(I had no idea that happened, and felt like a total idiot when people at work were talking about it.)

This is just a couple of things that I "intend" do this year. Hopefully I can keep my self motivated and work hard on making these things part of my daily life.

If you want to read Ali Sweeney's blog that was my inspiration click here.

a look at myself

Some times i wonder if I was really meant for motherhood. Today is one of those days. Before I continue I must say I love my children more than my own life, and that may be why I question myself from time to time. They deserve the best right?

Today I am questioning myself for a particular reason. I came home from work in a sour mood, not really sure why. This whole day I have been stressed and grumpy for no reason, who knows why. Luckily my children were scattered, playing with friends so the only one who really felt my wrath was my dear forgiving husband. By the time dinner time rolls around I am now feeling very guilty for not having even hugged one of my children at all today. But this is dinner time right? I can redeem myself. Nope. For the short 20 minutes I have with my kids this is what I sound like "sit down!", "eat your peas!", "dont make a mess!", "quit climbing all over your chair!", "Get out from under the table!", "finish your dinner!", "quit playing with the cat!", "no you cannot leave the table you haven't even touched your food!". At one point my 4 year old spilled her drink, luckily my 8 years old could see the big vein in my head about to pop and quickly cleans it up. Wow. If that doesn't show how much she knows me, I don't know what does. No wonder as soon as dinner was over the kids bolted, running over to the neighbors house. Where I am sure the mother is much more nurturing than I.

After I had cleaned the kitchen I sat down in the living room noticing how empty and quiet the house was. I couldn't blame anyone for leaving, I didnt even want to be around me. I sat in the rocking chair and cried. Which is probably just what I was needing to do all day. (why didnt I just get it over with at 9 o'clock this morning?) I gave myself a pep talk and swore the next child that walked through the door, I was going to hug.
So when my two year old woke up from his late nap crying I sat in the rocking chair and held him for about twenty minutes. My other children came home (of course it was just to grab swimsuits) and then left again.

So hear I sit questioning my self and wither or not I really should have had children. I mess up all the time, I yell when I probably shouldn't, and my patience is about as long as my arm. On the other hand I cant imagine my life with out them, they are the one thing that I know I cant live without, and the one thing that I would give my life for. I ache when they ache, I cry when they cry, and I laugh when they laugh. I want then to grow up healthy and happy. So I guess I am going to have to say, Yes I should be a mom. I am not perfect (far from it) but I want the best for my children.

I think times like these are good, hopefully I will remember them more than they do, but times like this make me want to be a better mom. Make me want to try harder and love stronger.

OK so today I am feeling really off- so if this confessional does not make sense just ignore it....

• I really like to work.
  
• Sometimes being a mom is a thankless job,
• I like to know I am appreciated
• My husband is really good and telling me I am a good mom but sometimes it would be great to know the kids appreciate me too.
• I must confess though I did not appreciate my own mom until I had kids,
• So I guess motherhood is just something you have to understand before you can be great-full for your mom.
• Any way at work I know I am appreciated-
• Hence- I like to work
• Plus I love coming home to kids that missed me and want to cuddle for a bit. :)

• I lost a total of 13 pounds over the course of 3 months!
  
• I feel really great about this.
• My goal was 25 pounds.
• But I still feel like this is a huge accomplishment!

• On a bit of a funny note....
• Clorox commercials make me feel guilty for not buying the name brand of bleach
• I still buy the off brand but the commercials make me feel like a bad mom for not buying Clorox. hehe

• But this commercial makes me laugh and makes me feel good for owning a minivan.........
• Swagger Wagon
• Its not a Sienna but Odysseys are just as cool.....
  

Ok so that's all for this Friday. Hope you had fun! I did, nice to get some stuff off my chest. Now go see GlamazonMom and play for your self